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An Existential Thought
Hoplessness and absurdity permeate the entirety of our existences. We wake up every morning, look in the mirror and ignore the disgusting creatures that we have become. Never paying attention to our own transformations, we focus on the change in circumstance. But we are ourselves and our circumstances. Is life really without meaning? Without purpose? What happens when one realizes that there are no necessary norms, laws, or rules? Do we just reach a general mood of despair and continue on in hopelessness? I’ve gotten to the point where I’m unintentionally suppressing my own individuality. As my uniqueness becomes non-existent, nothing meaningful in my existence can be affirmed. I lay awake for those last few moments, and the stillness like death sets in. I can hear my heart beat; and everything sinks, powerless. The stillness is so impenetrable, I eventually slip into unconsciousness, where my sub-conscious begins telling me truths that I’ve been purposely avoiding. It’s all such an abstract process.
